Day 36 Of Following Joy

What am I doing with my life? My mind would be constantly asking me this.

It was day 36 of my pivot year and I was waiting for clarity about a direction. I can feel the fear and tension within my body, so tight and wound up. I would use my breathwork technique I learned from Bella Lively to release the tension and give myself moments of relief.

For the first month after leaving Vancouver and leaving nursing, my mind and body were releasing and moving through a lot of fear and unknowns. This isn't an easy place to be in. The good thing is I have been practicing and working through a lot personally that helped me. I knew that no matter what happens I am still a whole and worthy individual and that kept me going. I knew I would not let depression, or negative emotions get the best of me. I set my intention for this year to be abundant and full of ease.

Although, my mind may feel at times that is suffering, my intuition is showing me that what I am experiencing is duality. That I am experiencing how to embody worthiness without money coming in. To really learn and embody my worth no matter what my outcome. It is also teaching me to connect and rely on others. I have for the last 38 years been relying on myself a lot and not fully allowing people to support me. These days while I pivot have shown me how to allow myself to be supported. I am so happy and thankful for the support I am receiving as I shift my beliefs, perceptions and release fear.

At any given time you can change your thoughts and live a very different life. I know my life experience doesn’t have to be one of struggle. But I need to release the struggle from the past and welcome the energy of my new experiences for that to happen. This doesn’t mean that this life will automatically become better, it just means that I am moving up wth vibration scale. Accepting everything that is coming to me with gratitude and pleasure.